Like a fresh romance, I started my new job with an unrealistic image of what it would be like.

I hated myself for forcing my ideas on my team at Workday. This was my attempt to be better when I got to Clara Lending.

Three years ago, I made a mistake that shaped my management style ever since.

It's as if someone else was making terrible decisions for me by taking over my body and then leaving me to deal with the mess.

I made one crappy decision after another while working with my first co-founder right out of college. These decisions earned me a year and a half of misery until I finally I had enough.

I quit my career and moved my family to The Netherlands. I ended up with a year of anxiety and frustration, exactly what I was running away from.